Fighting a losing battle

Its scary, when you are a strong, intellegent, loving person but sobriety just cant seem to stick. I’ve seen so many lives destroyed and yet there I am, right in line waiting for I dont even know what anymore. I’m so tired and just want life to feel serene. One thing I can say is that I will continue to fight until I’ve won, and to all my family and friends I love u and thanks for never giving up on me