2 down, and a lifetime to go!!!!

So we have e entered the 2nd month of this brand new year and im still alive.  Yay I dont mean to sound grim but the things we do when we let loose are pretty out there .  Who knows maybe its just me lol.  It’s crazy because I never thought I would have so many issues staying sober.  Now I’m not crazy out of control and handle my business as needed but damn. I do understand that we are all flawed humans and there are mistakes and detours that will be  tossed our way. But its whatever we doo after that makes the difference. I am going to be completely honest say fml I am scared that it may never get easier but I digress. I know what I want to do and that’s be clean and sober.