I was going to go into this without any research at all, but as I stayed staring at the blank page I realized how ignorant that would be. So I did a little bit of research to find that gene’s do play apart in addiction. Now don’t get my words twisted, I’m not saying we can blame it all on gene’s. No we cannot, we are all still held accountable and at the end of the day we choose whatever path we end up on. Back to the topic at hand, our Gene’s as well as our environment we are brought up in play a part of how we view and handle addiction.
My family were all pretty much addicts, whether it was alcohol, drugs, gambling, even sex most of the people that had a hand in raising us where addicted to something. For years I would tell myself I will never end up like them” And for a good time I didn’t little did I know that I just hadn’t found the addiction for me. I know what you must be thinking, Why would anyone call and addiction for themselves? I say it with anger, sadness, and frustration. I wish I had never found what I will call my Krypronite.
I know that we all make choices and there is no one else we can blame but ourselves. There is a small part of me that wonders,if life had been differnet,if my family wasn’t such a mess, would I still be an addict. I call those the should’ve, could’ve, would’ve’s. I know that thinking about what could’ve been is never the best way to go, only for the fact that there is nothing that can be done about the past. But it’s hard to not think about it. I know one thing for sure and that is I will do my best to learn from the past and try and fix what was broken. I can’t change the past, but I cam definately pave a new path for me as well as my future generation. Maybe there is a gene that affects addicts, all I know is I will male sure my environment will not be the deciding factor.